"Let everyone do their talking about 50 shades of grey, but don’t let anyone talk you out of it: committment is pretty much black and white. Because the truth is, real love will always make you suffer. Simply commit: Who am I willing to suffer for? Who am I willing to take the reeking garbage out for... Continue Reading →
Somersaults of Gratitude
I have a daughter that likes to twirl and flip and somersault and kick and throw punches and bury her head deep inside my pelvis to avoid "making it easy" on ultrasound techs. I have a daughter with beautiful fingers and toes and ears. I have a daughter who is already living up to her... Continue Reading →
Seasons {Beauty around the corner}
The entrance of November seems to officially welcome Fall in my mind. Gone are the Halloween decorations and gone are most the clinging summer leaves. The trees bare themselves for what is to come, Thanksgiving themes are out on display, and my heart begins to ponder the year that is past and the year that... Continue Reading →
Thanksgiving Day 4: Is this even fair?
How does one continue to give thanks when the blood flows red? How does one rejoice in all things when those "things" involve loss of life? I will never know whether or not I'm having an early miscarriage or just a heavy flow...I would tend to think the former. However, technically I'm not sure when... Continue Reading →
When the Giver overwhelms
Since I spend so much time publicly doubting on this blog, publicly questioning the Holy, then it is only right that I also spent time repenting, healing, answering my Savior, "Yes." Sometimes the Giver just overwhelms...and sometimes I am overwhelmed by my fragile, broken humanity. I've doubted this week. Some days I've not even wanted... Continue Reading →
An attempt at thanksgiving
As the chaos of classroom noise subsides and I close my curriculum notes for the evening, I give thanks. For three gifts of the reaping. A table-full of breads and muffins, fruits and breads - a sweet Fall gift from parents at school. Macaroni Grill take-out dishes - perhaps not in the traditional sense, but... Continue Reading →
Drug bust!
Well, not quite, but nearly as exciting on one's average Wednesday morning. First, let me set the backdrop. An unusually-wired middle school boy bounces into my room yesterday morning, chirruping in between bounces, "I...[bounce]...had...[hiccup]...a Monster drink....this morning!" Despite my instructions to glue himself to his desk, the morning did not progress in a way that... Continue Reading →
The Circle of His Love
Father God, I read Your Word, specifically Your Psalms, and I hear the call to come up higher, come cuddle in Your lap, come rejoice with You. Today . . . today . . . I give thanks. You have not left me to the enemies of my soul - depression, fear, anger, worry -... Continue Reading →
Pinching, perfection, and passionate patience
A brown fleece blanket wraps itself snuggly around my folded legs, as embroidered couch pillows cushion my curled form. Events, decisions, thoughts, disappointments, joys, and lessons of 2011 parade themselves through my heart just as the televised New Year's floats meander down the San Antonio, Texas, riverwalk display. Maybe, you too are snuggled somewhere, resting from... Continue Reading →
Between Denver and Dakar, Day 6
Dear David, Six days have already begun to weigh heavy on my heart. On this day of Thanksgiving, this day of celebration, I miss you sharing in the magic of what has been. After sleeping about four hours in the last forty, my fingers can barely type the words I so desperately want to share... Continue Reading →