Are you in a season of restless searching? Is there a disquiet in your heart that perhaps can't be pinpointed? A wandering that has you looking in vain for the next big adventure? I am. I often am. If perhaps you can identify with my heart's yearnings, then you understand the search for validation, the... Continue Reading →
No Cat and Mouse Game {Just Ask}
"There's a peace I've come to know Though my heart and flesh may fail. There's an anchor for my soul. I can say 'It is well.'" Upheaval seems to be one of the themes of 2013 so far. In December, as I was pondering my 2013 goals, I distinctly had the impression that the Holy... Continue Reading →
Always. Forever. {All of the time}
A walk around neighborhood gravel paths. A set of simple questions. And I am undone. Depressed by my lack of answers. Discouraged by my lack of hope. The inflection in David's voice is nothing but loving as he asks me, "How are you doing? What is God teaching you right now?" Praise God for a... Continue Reading →
Let us start with a prayer
Heavenly Father, You who crafted the delicate flower bud and spun the carpets of the skies. You who laid out the minutes of our days and planned the purposes of our hearts. We thank you. For the beauty. For the disorder. For the pain that draws us closer to you. For the sorrow that calls... Continue Reading →
While the emotions are still raw {Or when God says, “Not now”}
What a wonderful night of sleep...in the midst of my colorful fantasy land two tests came up "pregnant." One even blinked the word at me in some ethereal code of congratulations. I was surrounded by family and friends to tell and surprise. It was beautiful. ~~~ Sitting on the bathroom floor, however, my miracle lasted... Continue Reading →
Wasted emotions {Perhaps not so wasted}
Over oatmeal, a chocolate turnover, a breakfast sandwich, and, of course, cups of coffee yesterday morning, a dear friend and I discussed a plethora of emotions - specifically those that many would deem wasted. Yearning for a baby. Hoping again and again for conception. Again and again tasting disappointment. Yearning for a husband. Hoping again... Continue Reading →
The ugly and the beautiful
I'm convinced that nothing short of Heaven will ever be able to deliver absolute perfection. Nothing is without some pain, some struggle, some trepidation. We are, after all, firmly rooted in a dying Earth. Yet, we give thanks for that which is broken, shared, bruised, and blessed. When we are really brave, we give thanks... Continue Reading →
Miracles we don’t pray for
My church is praying for miracles right now. As a congregation, we have set aside the month of October, as II Chronicles 7:14 indicates, to humble ourselves, seek God's face, and pray. As I have endeavored to follow through with my October commitment, I've realized that there are many miracles that we don't even pray... Continue Reading →
Framed by words
To be perfectly honest, I am not always honest. With myself. With others. With God. This morning, though, I will try to be transparent. Try to let the dirty and the lovely shine through the same window pane. I am, after all, a mosaic of God's making. I am here in Texas for the next... Continue Reading →
Eyes Swollen
Itchy. Watery. Puffy. Those are just a few of the adjectives floating around in my head right now. For the past several weeks, my eyes have been reacting to some unknown irritant on a fairly regular basis. I have even gone so far as to sleep with a cold, wet washcloth over my eyes in... Continue Reading →